Old flings...

So...today I had the weirdest thing happen...I got a text from an old fling...I didn't think anything of it at first...but then...I got that whole warm funny feeling...and one thing leads to another and I end up inviting him over...this being said...He is engaged...I mean really...why me??? Is this normal??? And of course all I remember are all of the good things about him...And we used to have a blast!!! We traveled...partied...and did things that would frighten fish...LOL...Then I don't even remember what happened...but we ended things...I'm sure he did what most of them do and cheated on me...Oh yeah that's right...I walked in on him and some girl...who knew we were together and still chose to screw him...Oh well that's the past...So...what do I do in this situation...I am to the point where I see so much cheating and betrayal that...like they say...If you can't beat them...join them...I know that doesn't make it right...and God love the poor girl he is about to marry...but in the end...I think everyone will cheat...I heard on the radio the other day that 1 out of 2 married men will cheat as far as a kiss goes and 1 out of 4 will cheat as far as sex goes...what happened to love...I mean really...is it out there...the good ole days of living like our grandparents is a thing of the past...Don't get me wrong...I want it...and I thought I had it...but once that rug has been yanked out from under you...will you ever really get over the hurt...I'll tell you what...I'm gonna try ...with an Old Fling...

Fools Rush In...

Ok...Maybe I'm just not meant for relationships...I know I told you that Cowboy Guy and I were gonna take it slow...but that damn vodka...5 drinks in me and I turn into something else...So I text him...Only due to the fact that when he was here...I had to know where we stood...I mean HELLO...I'm not going thru the same shit I went thru with The X-Factor...So I ask a simple question...Well his reply was "we need to take it slow...so let's just say we are discussing talking"...WTF does that mean...what are we discussing...The Weather...No...when feeling are involved I think you should know where you stand in a relationship...I was told everyday for the past two years how much I was Loved...Pretty much word vomit...So should I be OK with Cowboy Guys response...Well at the time I didn't think so...So I told him to F off...But now that I \think about it...at least he had the guts to be honest and give me a straight  answer...Maybe I just need to set back and relax and find myself again...You know how they say you have to be happy with yourself before you can be happy with anyone else...I don't know what the hell that means...but I guess I'm gonna give it a try...I do need to start doing the things that I used to do before douche bag made me a Freaking Real House Wife Of The Dub...I miss taking pictures, showing my horses, and going out and being the center of attention...So buckle up...It's gonna be one hella ride...So in other words...This fool ain't rushing in to anything...

Trust...

OK...I know I kind of got on my soap box yesterday...about moving on...but I know...It is easier said than done...Even for someone as strong as I am...And it can be the smallest things that set you off...A song...a smell...and walking into a home you shared with the other person that left you and them not being there never makes it easy...So...when will this end...Honestly...I wish I knew the answer to that one...and doesn't it suck...because you only remember all the good about that person and not ALL the bad...So I have to remind myself of what he put me thru...That being said todays topic is trust...So you all know I've met someone...Cowboy Guy...He is kinda my perf!!! I mean...he is country...HE WORKS..and I think he is sexy...we've been friends for quite some time and have done our fair share in the past...but once he heard The X-Factor was gone...he dialed me up...I was blown away...So he came in this weekend and I really enjoyed his Company...But I caught myself not believing things he said only because I have been so hurt in the past...How do I ever trust again...I know he is a trust worthy guy and know I can trust him...but like I said...I have been lied to...stolen from...and now cheated on...how do I ever let someone else in...I so wish I knew all the answers...but I don't...I'm here to vent and maybe let someone else know I am feeling their pain...And yes...It's alot of pain...And like I said yesterday...I know in 5 years when I'm with Tom...Dick...or Harry...I won't give two shits about the douche bag...but getting there is the problem...Knowing that they have moved on and left you behind...Well I say screw it...Do what I do...Look at the picture above...I'm a happy camper...grinning from ear to ear!!! Sometimes we just have to put on our happy face and face the world head on!!! And when it comes time to trust someone...you know we are gonna go with our hearts and not our heads...But maybe that is what makes us so awesome...We have a heart and they don't...We believe in  happy ever after...and guess what...we deserve to be happy and we will be...and when it comes time to trust...Trust that we will be happy...Happy ever after...

Here Goes Nothing...

Hello everyone...It's Miachel Herrera...aka...Mia...and after a month of balling my eyes out...I've decided it's time for the pity party to end...you see...I was in one of those...Thought I had everything in the world relationships...I mean one day I'm getting an Easter basket with a cut out heart saying how much he loves and misses me and the next day...I find out he is cheating on me through his Face Book...Did that really happen to me??? I mean...I am Miachel Fucking Herrera...I'm The Big Deal...The Catch...well it looks like in this case...I was...as Donald Trump would say...FIRED...So after two years of what I thought was total happiness...I am being forced to move on...I'm writing this because I know I'm not the only one out there that is going through this...has gone...or will go...Just know you are not alone...and even though you feel like you are the only one that has ever felt such pain...Like the song says...you are not alone...I mean it sucks a big fat one...How does someone we love with every ounce of our being...cheat...And the ole saying once a cheater...always a cheater...BELIEVE it!!!  So like I said...I've been forced to move on with my life...that being said...to date I've lost over 60 + pounds...started dressing to the nines...and like they say...the easiest way to get over one is to get under another one...So as that's what I'm doing...I don't know what advice to give when you first get dumped...all I can say is...have your pity party...wallow in that shit...then get over yourself like I did...better yet...get over the douche bag that dumped you...because let me tell you...Ole Trailer Trash Girl did me the biggest favor anyone has ever done!!! So you like me...will be better off...And no matter if we think it is the end of the world or not...in 5 years...we will all be laughing and asking ourselves...WTF was I thinking...and no matter what happens or how bad we feel...we still must move on...because no matter what...The Sun will Still Rise...and The Sun will Still Set...Enjoy It!!!