Well...I haven't written in awhile and I can feel the effects of it...Writing was my way of venting...My own diary if you will...only the whole world could read it...Well...I'm back...You see we are approaching the 3 month mark of The Breakup!!! And most people would of moved on by now...but not me...I have tried don't get me wrong...It's just that I am the type of person that when I give someone my heart...It belongs to them...call me old fashion if you will...And yes...He is a piece of shit loser...but...he was my piece of shit loser...and I'm not gonna lie...I miss him...Momma Roni says to just give it time...and that I'm only remembering the good things...which...she is soooo right...I mean...I stay busy doing Charity work...Fundraisers...I am out almost every night...but that's just it...I'm out ever night...and I know I have to come home alone...Thank God my friend Marina is staying with my this week or I would have been a basket case!!! Am I being stupid??? I thought when you told someone you love them and they told you the same thing...that it meant forever...Well...My forever only lasted two years...and I know I have to suck it up and move on with my life...hell...I've even joined dating websites...REALLY...is that what it takes these days??? and you should see who all is out there...and just my luck everyone I'm attracted to is like 20-25...FML...here I am 30 something and getting hit on by 18 year olds or ugly fat guys...and I know beauty is only skin deep...But that ugly goes really deep as well...Just sayin'...Oh well...same shit different day...I guess I should thank him for one thing...I had true love...and don't they say that it is better to have been loved than to of had none at all...I just know one thing...I'm ready for that love again...then maybe I will be able to move on...
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